You’re Good with Solitude

The other day I was at an event and they had a tarot card reader. The occult has always fascinated me and when I was in college, I had a roommate who was really into it. I ended up with two tarot decks of my own. The general rule though is you’re not supposed to be able to read “well” for yourself. And after college, I stopped using the cards. Still, I know the basics and am game for whenever wants to read my cards.

While in Sedona a couple of years ago, a reader told me I had a great life. She was surprised how I didn’t seem to have confusion or problems when she read my cards. She did tell me it would be a while, probably a year or two before I met the one “for me.”

Last December, I had a lipstick reading (where you press a lipstick print on tissue and the reader read the lines, somewhat like a palm reading). This time, the reader said scarily similar things. My life was great. Work was heading in a financially stable direction, family’s good, etc. And then she said I was going to meet someone very soon.  In fact, this was to be my soul mate. If I was to take what the Sedona reader said to heart, this was in the right time frame. Of course, it obviously wasn’t that date from hell or the meh date I had right after.

The lipstick print reader told me my soul mate has been previously married and though I don’t exactly meet him online, it’s related to it.  The reader thought it’s possibly a friend of someone else I’ve met online. Very odd. I, like a dumb ass, didn’t ask what he looked like. So, hello out there.

When the reader this week told me the same thing- I’ve got a good life but the fact was I’m good with solitude. I took that to mean I’m very independent and I don’t need anyone. Sure, yes, I have a lot of friends. I’m always out. I like my life. But there is something…missing. It’s not necessary bothersome in the sense I’m torn up over it. But I’m just a bit wistful.

In any case, in regards to when I’m going to meet this person, it could be “in a while” or “very soon.” The ambiguity of this statement floored me. How could this be? It’s not either or. It just is. So which is it? I, of course, am hoping if we’re keeping with the timeline, it’s sooner rather than later. The reader thought there might be something else I had to learn or take care of first before I was open to this meeting.

While having dinner with my friend at Drago Centro, she and I were puzzling over the reading. My friend has known me for almost half my life. She has degrees in pyschology and social work. I like to think of her as my personal sounding board (you may read that as therapist but I don’t have a need for one– hey, my life’s good!).

Her take on it was I’m not open enough to situations around me. Yes, I realize I’m very open to friendship but my creep meter is high.

The weird thing is, while I don’t actually take much stock into the occult, I still have these dabblings and discuss them seriously with friends. Perhaps I’m being pragmatic. I would love for this soul mate to materilaize but at the same time, if he did, would he disrupt my so-called great life and solitude?

I drew the Hierophant card for myself. And the Magician for him. The perfect pair? The Hierophant is a traditionalist. The Magician is mysterious.To draw the  Magician is good and bad. He’s slick, witty and clever. He’s all about the “reveal.”

I’m off to Seattle next weekend. The reader mentioned travel in my future. She was right about that.  Let’s hope she’s right about other things as well.